Thanks for all the prayers, ladies. I'm doing better today...
I was hoping the message at church would speak about relationships, but no such luck, lol! ;)
In my heart, I know there is (probably) someone out there for me, but my mind (and my younger sisters!) likes to play tricks on me. Today I received a text from my sister Amata, informing me that some guy at college asked her out on a date. Sadly, my first reaction was not a "Oh wow that's awesome!" but rather a "What??!?! How not fair?!" My sister is almost 21, a social butterfly and is asked out on dates far more than I ever am. Still, I'll come around.
Why is it, though, that I feel like I'd be happier in a relationship? All my life, I've wanted to be a mom. Yea, I know I've said it before and I'm sure I'll say it again. But really, that's where I am right now. I love my job, don't get me wrong, but I want to be done with the business world. I want to be home with my kids, have wanted that ever since I was a tiny girl. As I explained to Aniya earlier this week, even if I need to care for someone else's child/ren a part/full time in order to stay at home, that's fine. I LOVE taking a passel of kids to the library, the park, zoo, museums, kids concerts, doing crafts with them...it's my passion, really.
SAHMs, consider yourself blessed, even when you have a rough day!