Let me start off by saying I know I made the right decision regarding leaving my job.
However, that does not make it any easier. It's hard. My coworkers are slowly finding out. One of the girls had today off and when she picked her son up after nap, she asked me whatever became of my meeting with my boss last week-- so I had to tell her I'm not coming back. Her face just fell and I almost started crying. She said, "Definitely? For sure? You have to?" and I confirmed it. She's bummed. Everyone who hears is bummed. One girl wrote to me via Facebook (since we can't really talk too much about it at work) and just said, "I'm so sad!"
I'm sad too. Sad, and scared. Sad to leave the girls. Scared, extremely scared, of my future. I know that tears are healing (supposedly) but I don't cry easily. Except lately...all I have to do is think about not seeing my coworkers again, my dark unknown future, and I start crying. :(
Aniya told me on Saturday that her school is hiring. However, the thing about that is I'd have to jump on it NOW, because they will probably hire someone within the next month. I don't have any qualms with working at her school, although I don't really know much about it either.
I guess where I am at right now is that I want to finish the school year, process that I won't be going back to my school, and then worry about a job. If I end up nannying/babysitting for a year, so be it. I don't know that I want to go into another school setting. I don't know WHAT I want to do. At all.
Think it's possible to go through the stages of grieving with a job? I think so.